My stepdaughter started college classes this week and it took
me back to my own parental liberation. Mine came in stages…having returned from
the highly structured and rigid basic military training and technical school,
my real launching came as I loaded up my car to travel to my first duty
assignment in Colorado. Having said my goodbyes, I began the trek with an
avalanche of emotions, and by the time I hit the interstate, I was bawling my
eyes out. “This is really it” I admitted.
We all remember the transition to supposed “adult” status
post high school graduation, now knowing full well that we were far from being
grown-up…and yet, perhaps the most noticeable change at that time of our lives
was the drop off in parental supervision. Such is the case in my home…while my
daughter still lives with us, she now lives a life of “on my own.”
Do you recall your own rite of passage, being launched into
the world of self-reliance? We learned quickly then that the freedom we sought
for so long didn’t feel so free, as we faced the future of self-care. When you’re
out from under the protective wing of caregivers, somehow the early quest for
freedom retrospectively feels a bit hasty.
As adults, we typically think fondly of childhood days spent
under the supervision of our parents or caregivers. We assess those times as
care-free and unencumbered. Any teenager would argue that perspective and yet,
the more distance we gain from adolescence, the more we engage in “retrospective
sense-making,” or reinterpreting our past to fit our current life paradigm. In
any event, the aspect of being cared for or supervised is often something we
long for as we face adult pressures, decisions, and expectations from others.
The Fatherhood of our God is interpreted differently with
folks. And while it’s almost cliché to say that we typically relate to God the
Father in similar fashion to our experience with our earthly fathers, it
becomes vitally important to understand the difference between the two. On one
hand, we can hide behind the effect our dad’s had on us, and project that onto
our Abba…angry dad, absent dad, demanding dad…but what is the reality?
“Hashgachah pratit” is the Hebrew phrase that answers that
question. It refers to God’s personal supervision of our lives. Hashgachah
means “supervision” and pratit means “individual” or “particular.” There are stark
implications to this understanding of Abba’s involvement in our lives. He is
not distant; He is at hand. He wants to engage with us. He is interested in the
minutiae of our experiences. He is not rageful, disengaged, or rigid with us, regardless
of our day-to-day decisions. As one teacher put it, “God does not have a
communication problem.” He is ready to speak to us, lead us, encourage us.
Consider the words of Yeshua: “Behold, I stand at the door
and knock.” If we accept the fact that God is personally supervising our lives,
it stands to reason that He is always standing at the door, waiting for us to
open it. Truth be told, I can think of many times I purposefully shut the door
in His face in order to sin intentionally and then typically kept the door shut
for a period of time, acting as if He was not there…but nothing could be
further from the truth. When prodigal me reopened the door, I was expecting a
rod, but received an embrace.
The more we allow ourselves to be aware of His personal,
intimate supervision, the more we dwell there, the more we engage with Him. “Try
Me in this,” He offers. Keep the door open today haverim, and walk with the One
who not only fashioned you and is intimately acquainted with you, but who also
wants you to enjoy His personal supervision. Shalom!

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